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I’ve always been aware that I’m an idiot in comforting people. I’m just not good at it. When friends cry in front of me…I don’t know how to react. I don’t know what to say. I usually end up keeping quiet. It’s better than saying something wrong and worsen the situation, right?
You see, I’m just a normal human being, and…ok ok, I’m NOT normal, I’m weird, I’m crazy, I’m mad, I don’t sleep at night and I look like a vampire without make up. But still. I’m still considered in the human category. Ok, cut the crap. The point is, I have weaknesses, and this is just one of them. I just never know what to do when someone cries. My friends know that. And it didn’t bother me at all.
Not until I see him cry.
I can’t describe the feelings, but I feel bad seeing him sad. I feel useless for not able to do or say anything to make him feel better. Maybe he’d think I don’t care. All I did was just sitting there like a stone with blank expression. Mad. Even idiots know stones have no expression. If they have, then they wouldn’t be called stone. Stones are stones. Because all they do is stone. Ok enough of stones. I’m starting to get psycho. I almost forget that I haven’t sleep. I can’t. So continue.
While stoning, I tried to figure out what is the best thing to say or do, but I can’t decide so I ended up keeping my mouth shut. Every sentence I think of sounds very lame.
Damn I hate myself for being so helpless. If only I know the right thing to say. Arghhh. I shouldn’t be feeling this way. He left me, remember? I should be happy seeing him suffer like this.
Mad. Not only I didn’t(does this mean i already berjaya halfway in my 'mission' to love unconditionally?wahaha). After he left, I even surf yahoo for ‘what to do when your friend cries’ (LOL), but didn’t find anything. I tried to put myself in his shoes. I tried to imagine that if I’m crying, what my family/friends can do to make me feel better. It depends actually. I prefer them to stop commenting or giving advice when I’m crying. I’d like them to hug me…and maybe say something nice. Say something like they’ll always love me no matter what. Or buy me ice-cream. Or do nothing but just be there and show me they care. Haha. How often do I cry in front of them, anyway? If I cry, I usually do it alone…under my blanket. Haha.
So that’s me. He may be different. And I can’t possibly go and hug him and say “its ok, don’t be sad, I’ll always love you. I’ll be there for you. You want some ice-cream?”
Wahahaha.
In conclusion, I’m still as clueless as ever. He’s crying over another girl, and here I am, feeling bad to see him hurt. Mad. All couples quarrel, ok. It is totally normal. I’m the one who’s not normal. About 10 hours have passed and they’ve probably made up right now, wrapped in each other’s arms, totally forgotten about the incident…but this idiot called Shasha is still awake and blogging about it. Can’t blame me. I was shocked to see him like that.
Let’s just hope that he’s already ok by now.
p/s:to be honest...its not their relationship that i worry about. i just dont want to see him upset. i care about him, not them. thats kinda selfish, isnt it?
You see, I’m just a normal human being, and…ok ok, I’m NOT normal, I’m weird, I’m crazy, I’m mad, I don’t sleep at night and I look like a vampire without make up. But still. I’m still considered in the human category. Ok, cut the crap. The point is, I have weaknesses, and this is just one of them. I just never know what to do when someone cries. My friends know that. And it didn’t bother me at all.
Not until I see him cry.
I can’t describe the feelings, but I feel bad seeing him sad. I feel useless for not able to do or say anything to make him feel better. Maybe he’d think I don’t care. All I did was just sitting there like a stone with blank expression. Mad. Even idiots know stones have no expression. If they have, then they wouldn’t be called stone. Stones are stones. Because all they do is stone. Ok enough of stones. I’m starting to get psycho. I almost forget that I haven’t sleep. I can’t. So continue.
While stoning, I tried to figure out what is the best thing to say or do, but I can’t decide so I ended up keeping my mouth shut. Every sentence I think of sounds very lame.
Damn I hate myself for being so helpless. If only I know the right thing to say. Arghhh. I shouldn’t be feeling this way. He left me, remember? I should be happy seeing him suffer like this.
Mad. Not only I didn’t(does this mean i already berjaya halfway in my 'mission' to love unconditionally?wahaha). After he left, I even surf yahoo for ‘what to do when your friend cries’ (LOL), but didn’t find anything. I tried to put myself in his shoes. I tried to imagine that if I’m crying, what my family/friends can do to make me feel better. It depends actually. I prefer them to stop commenting or giving advice when I’m crying. I’d like them to hug me…and maybe say something nice. Say something like they’ll always love me no matter what. Or buy me ice-cream. Or do nothing but just be there and show me they care. Haha. How often do I cry in front of them, anyway? If I cry, I usually do it alone…under my blanket. Haha.
So that’s me. He may be different. And I can’t possibly go and hug him and say “its ok, don’t be sad, I’ll always love you. I’ll be there for you. You want some ice-cream?”
Wahahaha.
In conclusion, I’m still as clueless as ever. He’s crying over another girl, and here I am, feeling bad to see him hurt. Mad. All couples quarrel, ok. It is totally normal. I’m the one who’s not normal. About 10 hours have passed and they’ve probably made up right now, wrapped in each other’s arms, totally forgotten about the incident…but this idiot called Shasha is still awake and blogging about it. Can’t blame me. I was shocked to see him like that.
Let’s just hope that he’s already ok by now.
p/s:to be honest...its not their relationship that i worry about. i just dont want to see him upset. i care about him, not them. thats kinda selfish, isnt it?
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